the single life...

Overall, being single is excellent. I am pretty good with living my own life and not having to really "report" my day to anyone... or at least that's what I like to tell myself.

But then today I realized I constantly complain about how I am an extrovert and have no one to talk through or process things with. Contradiction? I think so.

I don't think I would mind being in a relationship if I found the right person. Of course, that's the hard part. Why, might you ask, does it seem so hard? Good question.

Maybe I am not opening myself up enough. I like my closed box, predictable, busy with no time open for suprises life. I finally realized that this might be becoming a problem when I thought about what I REALLY love to do... which is just BE ME with people.

I love human interaction. God made me that way. I love to feel wanted. God made me that way. I love being unique. I love being comfortable in my own skin, without ridicule. Sadly, there are people in my life who have seen these things as flaws.

I am finally at the point where I can honestly say I disagree with them. I have flaws and struggles. Doesn't everyone? God says that HIS strength is made perfect in my weaknesses. I celebrate the things others see as flaws because I truely believe God can work that way. Heck, just me accepting these flaws as strengths shows how truely awesome God is. Any woman who does not know Christ is incapable of doing this on her own. Trust me.

Maybe the problem that I am facing is that I am finally secure in who I am... now, let's find someone who loves that... :)